Indecisive
Everything seems to be absurd
as if I don’t care about anything or
anyone at all.
As if my mind is juggling and shuffling
between thoughts that don’t
match at all.
As if my heart is running a race
but my body doesn’t want to
move at all.
It’s not that I am not trying
but Nothing seems to
work at all.
I am trying to live
but life isn’t
easy at all.
What if I try something else?
Death may be
But they say this isn’t the
end at all.
Then what should I do?
How should I end this unbearable,
everpresent, disbalancing ache
(the cause of which is still a mystery)
Ugh! I don’t want to live.
Live at all…
(P.S: This piece was written by this amateur poet 2 years back during a really boring lecture. It was the most depressing phase of her life. It was disturbing but still an essential part of her life and hence worth sharing)
